Today has been such a
bittersweet day. Now a young man, my not-so-little brother left for
Marine boot camp. Last night, the entire family came over to say their
goodbyes and spend time in prayer with Zach. As my teary-eyed family sat
gathered in the living room and passed around the Kleenex box, I was
overwhelmed by the love and care within our family. I truly do not know
any other family where cousins are best friends and aunts and uncles are seen
as second parents.
As we each went around and
lifted Zach up to the Lord in prayer, I was overcome with an incredible sense
of awe and peace at God's mercy upon our family. Yes, we will all miss Zach terribly. Yes, I
selfishly want to keep Zach here away from screaming drill sergeants.
Yes, for my own peace of mind I want him to stay close to home.
Yes, I want the freedom to know that he is only a phone call away.
These are all things that I feel as Zach's sister. And yet, I along with everyone else in the family can send Zach off in the confidence that he is in the Lord's hands.
Zach has always been my
little brother, my goofy sidekick, my protector, my friend. I guess there
is a part of me that fears this will change--that somehow all this will cease
now that he is becoming a Marine. And yet, in spite of it all, I take
comfort in knowing that the Lord has so clearly led Zach to the Marines.
This is the Lord's will for Zach, and Zach has honored Him in pursuing
it. God has granted Zach the unique gifts and the passion to make
him suited for the Marines, and because the Lord has called him there, the
Marines are the safest place for Zach to be. Not here. Not close to
home and near family, but in the Marines, in the will of the Lord.
While it is difficult to
accept that the Lord has called Zach away, there is also something exciting in
this, for whenever and wherever the Lord calls someone, He is faithful to equip
and sustain them. I am learning that we are not called because we are
somehow able or adequate for the given job, but rather God makes us able
because He has called us to a particular job. And I trust that the Lord will be faithful to
equip Zach for all He has for him in the Marines!
As I’ve been
thinking throughout the day, I believe one may find many parallels between Marine boot camp and the Christian walk.
Here are a few:
Zach will also
face all sorts of challenging obstacles in boot camp. These challenges will be both physical and
mental, each uniquely designed to transform him into a Marine. Just as the challenges of boot camp are
specifically designed with some greater end purpose in mind (the making of a
Marine), so too does God place particular obstacles and trials in our lives to
shape and mold us into Christ-like men and women whose hearts and passion are
increasingly for Him and His glory. God
is committed to our sanctification, and because He intimately knows each of our
hearts, He knows exactly what fiery trials will consume the dross within our
hearts and refine us to Him. And
because He loves us, He will lead us along those paths. Just like boot camp, He has specifically
designed all the trials we encounter to draw us close to Himself and make us
more into the glorious beings He intended us to be.
Also, it is
not a matter of if Zach will make mistakes during boot camp. He certainly
will. It is merely a matter of when. And so, when that time comes
and Zach fails during boot camp, he will almost definitely be ridiculed and
humiliated into shame by his officers. But he will stand and take the
harsh criticisms, for he knows that in the end, the current hard circumstances
are necessary if he wants to leave his boyishness behind and become the Marine
he is designed to be. Likewise, no
Christian is perfect, and although we are daily being sanctified, we still bear
our sinful natures and will carry this with us until the day we die. There is one difference, however. As a Christian, Zach knows not only who he
is, but Whose he is. And because of Who
Zach bases his identity on, his self-worth cannot be determined by those around
him. Not by me, not by screaming
officers. Zach is Christ’s, and Christ
is his.
The last
parallel is this. Once Zach graduates
from boot camp, he will always be a United States Marine. In fact, I’ve
learned that there is no such thing as an “ex-Marine”. While Marines are
known by their uniforms, they are still set apart and respected as Marines even
if their uniform is taken away. The Marine Corps automatically makes Zach
different and set apart from other men. Others will know him by
this. And what is more, Zach will not forget who he now is. As a United States Marine, Zach will be
pushed and trained to become disciplined in both mind and body so as to meet
both the physical and mental demands of training and live combat. All in
all, as a Marine, whether in uniform or out, he is expected to demonstrate his
identity in both his character and behavior. But Zach will never be a
United States Marine first and foremost.
My prayer is that above all, even
the Marines, Zach will be a man of God.
Zach is a Christian. And just as
he will be known by others as a Marine, my prayer is that this will come second
to being known as an upright and dedicated servant and follower of Christ. All Christians belong to Christ, and
therefore Zach belongs to Christ. May
this always be so, and may he never forget WHOSE he is!!
And so, I know that Zach's
heart and genuine passion is to serve the Lord and bring glory to Him by
reflecting Christ in his life. In all honesty, the roughness of the
Marines scares me, and I feel frightened for Zachary. But I believe
wholeheartedly that the Lord will not abandon Zach, and that for His own great
Name's sake He will be faithful to not forsake Zach. Because I firmly believe that God is faithful to uphold his promises, I am free to joyfully surrender Zach to the Lord's good care. Yes, it is hard to see him go, but I believe
and pray that Zach will be a powerful tool for radiating Christ's glory and
bringing others to Christ. We need strong, committed, noble, humbly
confident, Christian men in our armed forces. Men who are great leaders.
Men who are so committed to their duty and yet so radical in their love
and selfless service to others that their fellow servicemen cannot help but be drawn to them and transformed through them. My prayer is that my little brother
will be such a man. Man of God
first. Marine second.
Who are
you? And even more importantly, Whose
are you?
This is beautiful, Sara. Through all God is doing, I see that He is using all to teach us how much we need Him, how "in control" He is, and it is thrilling to see each one of my children being conformed into the likeness of Christ. Amazing. Thank you, Father!
ReplyDeleteI loved this. Thank you for sharing this, Sara. I loved how you articulated all that you felt about Zack's leaving. Also, your family truly is amazing and exceptional. And I felt incredibly encouraged by the analogies you made between the marines and the Christian walk.
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