Sunday, September 16, 2012

What Do People Live to Do, the Way a Horse Lives to Run?


  “…I felt as though a hurricane had swept through me, leaving me hollow and exhausted. I swallowed a mouthful of orange juice and closed my eyes.
‘And what is it,’ I said softly, more to myself than to John, ‘What is it that people do? What do we live to do, the way a horse lives to run?’ I didn't expect an answer, and John didn't give me one…”

This text is an excerpt from one of my psychology textbooks.  In this particular case study, husband John and pregnant wife Martha have just undergone tests to see if their unborn baby has Down Syndrome. Although they do not yet know the outcome of the test, they nevertheless find themselves in the midst of a heated debate as to how to handle the possible outcome.  As I was doing my reading for class, what struck me was not Martha’s question, for I know that many have asked themselves, “What is it that makes our brief little lives worth living?” Rather, what perked my attention and broke my heart was the cold silence that followed this particular woman’s earnest yet timid plea for some sort of meaningful answer, for as she herself admitted, “I didn’t expect an answer, and John didn’t give me one…”   

In a world filled with suffering and chaos, we naturally possess deep and fundamental cravings for purpose and significance.  So where do we go and to whom may we turn to find and learn of our cause worth living for?  The answer is God and His Word.  The Bible offers compelling and profound answers to these questions that threaten to destroy the heart and soul if left unanswered.  Praise God, therefore, that we need not remain in a state of hopelessness and helplessness, for through His Word we have been granted both hope and help.

I know full well that brilliant men have devoted their lives to detailing and proclaiming God’s revealed purposes for mankind.  Now I do not currently have a lifetime—I have a limited amount of time before I must go and finish my Statistics homework.  Sounds thrilling, I know.  But in my limited time I want to simply proclaim what God has revealed to me through His Word regarding this great question:  What do people live to do, the way a horse lives to run?

To begin, we were created for God’s glory, and that is how we are designed to live—to daily bring Him glory!  In my textbook John told his wife, "A lame horse dies slowly, you know? It dies in terrible pain. And it can't run anymore, so it can't enjoy life even if it doesn't die. Horses live to run; that's what they do.”  The assumption here is that if a horse cannot live in a manner that fulfills its design, namely running, then that horse cannot experience true delight and pleasure as it was intended to.  In fact, the argument John makes is that a horse which cannot satisfy its innate need to run is not truly alive. More specifically, the assumption goes that horses, or any other creature for that matter, can only find deep and lasting joy from being and doing what they were created to be and do.  For horses, that is running.  For birds, soaring through the skies above.  For whales, it is plunging to the depths of the great and beautiful oceans.  For flowers, it is blooming forth in all their glorious splendor.  

But what about man? Surely among all the creatures and creation man would not be left without a purpose.  And herein lies the wonderful truth:  Man was created in God’s image with the glorious purpose of being a mirror to reflect His glory—our purpose is to fill the earth with the light of Christ’s beauty by reflecting Him to others. 

God has intimately created each one of us, beginning with knitting us together in our mothers’ womb.  Our lives are not accidents!  There is nothing meaningless about our existence, and to attribute our lives to random evolutionary mutations strips us of our Divine design and destroys that which God has made us to be.  We do not have to be like Martha and John who find themselves floundering in hollowness and exhaustion as they wrestle with the despairing prospect of a purposeless and therefore meaningless life.  We have been given the answer to our existence, and have therefore been granted a great and glorious hope!  Through the Gospel of Christ, we can come to more fully understand that our inborn longing to be satisfied is met in God’s purpose to be glorified.  And furthermore, God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him!  Beginning with myself, my hopeful and earnest prayer is that our Lord Jesus may be glorified in us as we reflect His glorious Gospel to a broken and hurting world.  We have tasted the riches of His glory, and just as the heavens display the glory of God and the skies proclaim the works of His hands, may we live in such a manner that invites others to come and eat and drink and live in Him!

Saturday, September 1, 2012

From Fear and Despair to Hope and Praise


My last semester at Hillsdale College has finally arrived.  I haven’t even been here a week and God is already teaching me so many important lessons.  Before I go on though I need to backtrack a few steps…

Arriving in Hillsdale last week, I was surprised and a bit startled by my response.  I guess I expected an overwhelming sense of excitement or eager anticipation at finally being a last-semester senior.  To put it simply, there were no such feelings of warmth or enthusiasm.  Rather, as I neared and finally entered “the Dale”, I was instead abruptly met with an overwhelming sense of dread and anxiety.  These feelings were so powerful I almost wanted to forget graduating and turn high-tail and run.  What on earth was going on?  Everyone kept telling me this is such an exciting time of life.  Exciting, huh?  Not exactly the word I would have chosen.  I felt almost crippled at the mere thought of trying to figure out life after Hillsdale.  I mean, sure, God had certainly been leading me and placing things on my heart, but I didn’t know exaaaactly what the next few months would hold.  Being a planner and somewhat of control-freak, this was terrifying.  And not only was it terrifying, it was frustrating as well!  Why wasn’t God directing me more clearly?  Couldn’t He see that I desperately wanted to do His will, and things would be a whole lot easier if He just made that will clear?  Surely I had been seeking Him fervently, so what was this cold silence? Was He deliberately trying to keep me in the dark?  How come everyone else seemed to be figuring out life?  Things were going just dandy for them.  Did I miss something?    

Yes, these were the thoughts and questions running through my head.  I confess I actually wallowed in my self-pity and despair for several days.  In fact, it wasn’t until another frustrating day of self-abashing and wrestling with God that I encountered something that stopped me dead in my tracks and brought me to my knees.  That thing was a sermon by my pastor back home (RW Glenn) on the tragedy and triumph of Jesus through the lens of Psalm 22.  

My pastor’s sermon brought me back to facing the reality of all that God has graciously done for me.  Why had I been so despairing these past days?  It was because I was focusing on all the ways in which God appeared to be turning His back on me.  And by allowing my mind and heart to dwell on His seeming callousness, I had completely forgotten the countless times God had come to my aid and rescued me.  I had failed once again to remember God’s proven faithfulness.

But why is it so important that we remember our Lord’s steadfastness?  It is because it offers us hope and a heart of praise and worship like nothing else can.  When I take the time to truly remember all that my God has done for me, I am both humbled and amazed.  And yet how quickly I forget and how swiftly my praise turns to fear and doubt as I question God’s goodness and intentions!  I am deeply convicted when I read Hebrews 3 which warns against an “evil, unbelieving heart” which causes one to “fall away from the living God.”  I do not want to be like the Israelites who repeatedly saw God’s mighty hand and yet time after time hardened their hearts and put Him to the test!  Oh Father, forgive me.

Psalm 22 and my pastor’s sermon offer me much hope as I am reminded of the confidence I have in Christ, for Jesus came down in the greatest rescue-mission ever and suffered the greatest tragedy on the cross so that I would never have to!  As I read Isaiah 53, I am hit with the reality of all Christ submitted Himself to on my behalf—abandonment, wrath, and even death!  In this life we will have trials, but these trials are the means by which God raises His children from tragedy to triumph.  As my pastor said, God often allows us to “[touch] the darkness before tasting the light.”  Yes we have the promise of Romans 8:28, but the more we have to wrestle and struggle, the sweeter that promise will be and the harder we will cling to it.

God has been so good to bring me this great reminder of all He has saved me from.   In fact, this remembrance of all He has done has completely changed my heart from one of fear and despair to one of hope and praise.  My Father has been so near and I know that right now, I am exactly where He wants me, and that is no better place to be.  And even more so, I am confident that God will lead me as I continue to seek His will on life after Hillsdale.  Yes, I still have questions regarding what life after December and post-Hillsdale will look like, but I’m so eager to see God’s hand as He leads and guides me in accordance with His will.  In fact, I not only feel content with where the Lord has me, I feel excited.  Right now my prayer is that I will slowly surrender my need to control and have the faith to wait on the Lord’s perfect timing.  And until His will is made known to me, I want to earnestly seek Him, pray constantly, wait patiently, and step forward each day in joyful praise and trust.      


"Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need." (Hebrews 4:14-16 ESV)